I told him I wanted to go home. I asked for it with no question or plead. It was a demand that I was desperate to have. Home is a strange word. What does it really mean? When do you know a place is your home? I came back feeling lost, I went back and felt empty. Confusion swallows me as I walk further to my original spot. What am I doing? How do I stop? Where is everyone?
Thinking that coming back home will fix everything was one of the most stupid mistakes I've made in my life. Who am I to fool that things could be fixed. It can only get better or worse and it feels like this situation has just gone downhill. I'm alone, no Perseus, Queen Sophia, or even light Madeline. I feel like I lost my soul. I have the idea how to get out of this place. No one can help me, so all I did was cried. I cried when there were no more tears left to shed. The tears would stop rolling but sudden movement broke me down into smaller pieces. I was so weak, I sensed it, my own weakness. My mind is so messed up that I thought ways to make it worse. I wanted the pain to be worse than it already is. Hurting myself became a constant thought. It was dark and scary, so I cried to get away from it, but that didn't work. Nothing seems to be going right. Should I ask Perseus for advice to going back to stay with him? What would he even think of me? You're a fool, make up your mind. Why can't you think straight? Stop crying. This is why you lost Sophia. STOP STOP STOP! I didn't realize that I was yelling until I felt a hand touched my shoulder. Immediately frighten of a stranger's contact, I pushed the hand away and never noticed who it was. What's the point of this? Of anything? Everything is going to be okay. How can it not be? You are Alderam, partner of Queen Sophia. Yes, she may be missing at the moment, but it wasn't your fault. You are not lonely because you want to be lonely. It's not your fault just because you are involved. Think about it Alderam, life moves on. People change, things happen. Find your light, Perseus is amazing at pulling people into his little scheme. Do you think he really wants to be your friend and show you the world? Are you kidding me? He's going to destroy you. Take your soul away just like how you took his lover. He blames you for everything that happens. Are you going to let that happen? Do it. Let him take you away. Do it Alderam, what's stopping you? STOP STOP STOP! I've had enough with everyone, including myself. I need to get away, but I don't know where my destination is. You have to find Perseus. I have to find Perseus.
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The rain continues to fall as the storm stirs up the city. Everything was ruined. It was a mess, all of it is destroyed and I could only watch as it continues to happen. Things were falling apart right in front of me. I couldn't do anything, I was helpless. I looked outside the window again, lightning continuously hits the surface. At this moment, the room went quiet, until the thunder once again crashes. It felt lonely, being here all by myself when everyone tries to abandon me. Does no one want me? What did I do wrong? Light, that's what I'm supposed to be, but I failed. Madeline cried because of me. She wasn't happy, and that was because of my stupidity. I lost control, but it felt so great. It was amazing to have that much power that I didn't want to let it go. How could you? When you have so much control, you never want to let that feeling go. It's as if it was some sort of drug that was inside of me and my reaction was the effect of this high. It's addicting and I want more of it. The door opened, light eyes Perseus entered the room, "Hello," he greets softly. I nodded back to him. We barely spoke since the incident and it is quite scary because Perseus' reaction could be anything. Well, he already freaked out in front of me before when I was taking those actions, but no words were spoken afterwards. I'm quite surprised he hasn't tried to hurt me yet. I was ready for his pain, but they never came. "What you did, it wasn't okay." He sat down on my bed. Perseus looks tired, exhausted and just not healthy. I found my seat next to him and sat down. "Although, I cannot tell you what you can or cannot do. That is your choice and you happened to do that. Please do not ever, I mean ever speak to Madeline with that tone or attitude again." He looked out the window as he spoke, trying to hide the fact that this situation really bothers him more than he wants me to know. "Madeline. She cannot take comments like yours well and it is just no good. I am not sure if she is ready to see you yet because I myself, think that it would not be a good idea. Though, that does not mean you will not apologize. You will and I will make sure of it." I nodded, agreeing with what he has to say. Guilt is completely washing over me. Sophia, where are you now to lead me to a better place. Why did you have to leave me here all alone? Why did I ever agree to come to this place? My mouth starts to itch and once again I lost control, "I want to go home." I blurted out. Perseus quickly turns around facing towards me, his eyes grew wide. "You, you want to leave?" He spoke in disbelief. I couldn't tell exactly what he was feeling, but I am definitely sure he wasn't happy about that. "Oh," was all that left his mouth. Did I really want to go home? Perseus slowly got up and walked to the windows. His face tense up for a second and soften as he turns around. He took a long sigh and nodded, "If that is what you wish to happen." His eyes were the lightest I have seen as he looked at me and gave me a weak smile. Not long after he return gazing through the windows and left me alone to pack my things. This was it, I was going home-or so I thought. how did you like that part? hope everything makes sense. i tried my very best to describe the situation, but at the same time not because there are things I must keep to myself to enhance the story/plot. enjoy!This is a reminder that this is still part of a mini story I'm doing. Enjoy! I am not scared. I will not be scared. They won't scare me. I am strong, I shouldn't be bothered by something I can barely see. Meeting Perseus was a bad idea. No, it wasn't. I don't know him, but he knows you. People know you.
Of course, he had to bring someone. Perseus seems like a lost boy, he doesn't exactly know what he's doing. He brought someone to make him feel better, I could see it. The other one made me cry, he bought the emotion of torture. At that moment, his words, his presence, it wasn't welcoming and I couldn't help it but cry. The mysterious boy was so bright, but he was heading to the dark corner. On the other hand, Perseus was always dark, but he backed away to the light window. At that moment, the mysterious boy talked down to me I believed his words. His voice was strong, it was hard not to listen. Perseus was weak and soft, but he tried to keep it together. He didn't seem like he liked the idea, but he didn't anything to stop it. I closed my eyes and held myself knowing that if I do that enough, they will be gone. To my surprise, they were gone. The last thing I heard was Perseus yelling at the boy. He didn't sound happy at all. Then everything went quiet, and I was once again at peace. ~ The morning sun, it was beautiful. The light would show through the window and flash my eyes. It's hard not to appreciate the beauty of nature. The wind would be music to my ears as it blew softly, and the birds were like alarm clocks, telling you it's time to wake up and start my day. Last night was terrible for me, but I'm not going to let that stop me from anything. I took certain things that the boy had said to me personally, but it's just words I have to ignore. I wonder if Perseus would visit me today. Daily, he would come and check on me. I don't know why though because we met not that long ago. Although, I remembered him telling me something about protecting me, I don't know. I became used to seeing him everyday whether he noticed me catching him or not. You could say I miss him I guess, he became a friend, of course I would miss him. I hope whatever happened last night doesn't change the way he acts around me. His friend probably didn't mean to hurt me, but who knows. It's okay, I'm good. I'm fine. I get this all the time nothing is new. The wind once again blew against the window. I looked out as the sky has darken, it was about to rain. I sigh loudly, the blues are coming. I got up and opened my lights. Oh, how I wish I could stay in bed the whole day. "I mean you could if you wanted to," a voice spoke up. My eyes grew wide, and I slowly turned around to search for the familiar voice. I jumped a little when I realized it was the light eyes boy- Perseus. He laughed when he noticed my reaction. I slapped his arm slightly, "Why do you think it's funny to scare me like that?" Suddenly, I laughed along with him. He seems much happier than usual. I like this side of him. "What brings you here?" I asked, facing him now. I noticed how clear his eyes are. It was as if something new, or big happened and it changed his point of view. He smiled as his nose crinkle, "You, of course. I've got something to tell you." He excitedly nods his head. I nodded back in approval for him to continue. Before he spoke, his features became tense and serious, "You cannot tell anyone. It's a secret between me and you okay?" I stick my hand out for him to shake as a confirmation. He looked at it and then shook it, "Promise." He continues to speak, "I think I found something. Something cool, well by cool I mean special. It hasn't happen in a long time and it makes me happy. Although, it can make me upset, it makes me feel good most of the time. I don't know if they'll even stay, I don't know. I'm really hoping they stay because if not I will go back to the old me. And to be honest, that's not a really good me, so yeah." Perseus stared at me as if he was waiting for a response. It was still taking time for me to process everything he said so I just nodded. His smile dimmed down a little, I shook my head and lightly laughed, "You just spoke a lot. I wasn't used to that." He smiled, so I continued, "I'm glad someone is making you happy. It's nice to see you like this." His smile grew bigger, "Thanks to you of course." Please help me. I don't know what's happening to me. Everything seems to fade away and what was so colourful has now turned into grey. All of it used to make sense. I used to understand everyone, but now, I can't even understand myself.
This is all Perseus' fault. No it's not. It is not, but I just wanted someone to blame. I did not want it to be me and he seems like the right fit. Perseus was an intriguing man, I must not lie. I could sense his purity. He does have it, but is afraid to show himself. Many things spread around the place and what they say about Perseus is not a great one. He was a poor child, with hopes and dreams but he had them taken away when a girl walked into his life. Sophia- my queen. She was the true definition of beauty. It was hard for me to denial any attractions to her. I knew that he loved her very much, but I couldn't help myself and fall for her too. She chose me. She loved him but somehow she chose me. That makes him hate me I know. Ever since that happened Perseus lost his light. He hid away himself and never again let anyone in. Until Madeline of course. I think he loves her but is afraid to admit it to anyone. He is scared that history is going to repeat itself. I mean, I don't think I have any attractions toward Madeline, so there should be no problem at all. I want to help Perseus get better but I think it's only making me change. The light may want Perseus now, but it seems like the dark wants to consume me. I looked at Madeline from afar. Silent cry and broken tears rolled down her face. Alderam hurt her and I couldn't fix it. Usually the mess happens because of me but this time it changed. I mean, yes I brought the devil out of him but it was never meant to mean success. Alderam is weak, or maybe I thought he was. He's like a crack on a glass floor. If you keep stepping on it, it will continue to break until there's no more to step and you fall. Thinking about that makes me somewhat nervous to be around him.
Wait, wait, wait. What am I thinking? Why would I feel any emotions towards that creature? I am Perseus, the master of darkness. Everyone hates you. Everyone wants to be me. What can Alderam do? Nothing, he's just a lord of light. I am the master, he's just the lord, we are nowhere to be touched on the same level. Alderam is disgusting. He thinks it only takes one action to break me. He thinks that just because he got to Madeline, he'll get me. Yes, Madeline can light up this dark soul, but she can't be my reason of weakness. It takes way more than that to break me. Way more. I couldn't voice against her. She stood up and took her hand and pressed it against mine. Her touch were soft, but they were cold. It was innocent, like the way her eyes twinkle every time she smiles, but it was lacking something. Her. She wasn't there anymore. She promised me to never leave, but it was broken. I was broken. No one could escape the dark during those times. My father was even affected, but I didn't care. Nobody should have to go through what I went through, but they did because I was selfish. I am selfish. Everyone forgot about the entire thing. Why? Because a part of being a master, is you have something others don't have. I made them forget it all. No one should know, except me. Madeline reminded me a lot of Sophia. Their presences attracted me way beyond any description. It was as if anyone were to describe water. You can't. Sophia was my queen. She was my world, but she left me. Well, it was more like I left her because she left me. I don't think she truly loved me like they said she did. The feelings were just there but Sophia didn't want me. He doesn't remember. He doesn't need to remember. I don't want him to remember. She wanted Alderam. Hello! Sorry I'm posting this late and that it's a short post. Trying to figure out the balance of posting the mini story and regular blog post. We'll have to see this week! Enjoy. The man stood in the corner as he watched the blue eyes darken. They haven't spoken since Adelram has hurt Madeline. Perseus was upset. He didn't exactly know why he was upset but he knew that it had to do something with the girl. The brown eyes felt strange. Something came over him that day and he couldn't control himself. He loved seeing Perseus hurt and wanted to play with that. The results lead both of them in confusion.
Madeline affected both of their lives. Alderam loved that idea. He was one step closer to Perseus' weakness. Perseus sighs loudly, "Look, what happened-it must not happen again." He walked towards the blue eyes and grab a hold of his shoulder, "We must forget. We must." Alderam smirked, "Why do you want to forget so badly. You seem so fond of the girl. I'm sure you want to remember every single thing about her." He felt powerful. With every word he spoke, he knew that it would make Perseus go back to the corner. He was happy about that so he continued, "You hate seeing her hurt-scared, that's why you told me to stop. Admit it Perseus, you have strong feelings for her. Ma-" Alderam was interrupted when a fist contacted his face. The blue eyes were no longer bright, they were dark and frightening. The brown eyes were surprised, he couldn't believe Perseus punched him. Both bloods boiled. Perseus grit his teeth, "I told you to stop. What don't you understand?" The blue eyes spits out blood that formed inside his mouth. He laughed coldly as he enters the dark corner, "Perseus, I don't know a lot of things and I won't lie about it. But I know for the fact that you found yourself a new weakness." Hello, this is indeed still part of my mini series collection. Please follow my journey! If you haven't read the beginning yet, make sure to click below and check this after since this is part 3!A new place, he was right- Perseus took Alderam to new places. It wasn't hell, but it wasn't something anyone would call home. Since Perseus pushed Alderam, they once again entered another world as if the world they were once in wasn't good enough.
Alderam took small steps, looking around dazed at his surroundings. What will happen? Alderam was terrified. He didn't know if he was afraid of what Perseus is capable of or the fact that the possibility of him enjoying everything is increasing. Alderam just wants to go home. But does he? He has no idea. Seems like as every day goes by, every hour, minute and seconds he became less conscious of himself. Today, one of the worst-best moments Alderam has experienced. They consumed a soul. This term wasn't literal. They did not take away someone's life. They made the soul consume them. Today, Alderam learned that darkness was everyone's weakness. No matter if we try to hide or ignore them, they will always be there. Alderam was no good at consuming, but Perseus was. He was one of the best, everyone wishes they were him-especially someone special. Now, it was time for Perseus to put his teaching skills towards something good. Alderam needs to be turned. He was a weak man, Perseus can feel his fear every single moment, and he was shrinking smaller and smaller-Perseus could see it. He shoved Alderam to the corner of the room, prepared to get another soul. Her name was Madeline. The girl was young, innocent and beautiful. It took a few seconds for Perseus to rip his eyes away from her. There was sunshine in her smile, every time she appeared in the room, the day never ended and smiles never faded. Her clothes were casual-tight jeans, wide necked sweater and brown boots. She was innocent. Madeline sighed, exhausted from the loaded work she was given a few days ago. Why am I here? She asked herself. Yes, the girl made everyone around her happy, but she didn't love herself much. There was something wrong, something off about her life. Madeline wanted change, but she didn't know how. The day Perseus found her, he was instantly intrigued. Her radiance was bright, but her fear was everywhere. He knew he had to know her. Perseus would unconsciously follow her around, protect her from mistakes and watched from afar. It came to a point she even acknowledge his existence because Perseus thought it was suitable. He didn't know what got into him. He wanted her to see him. Alderam stared at Perseus as he stared at the beautiful girl. Perseus wasn't the only one who could feel things. A strange sensation hits Alderam, it wasn't from him. It was from his teacher-Perseus. He was acting different. Is it because of the mysterious girl? He asked. It must be. Alderam smirked, finally, finding his opportunity to show his friend what he's got. "Do you ever do anything right?" "A nap will not make your problems go away." "You are worthless." Alderam growled. Taken back by his action, Perseus stared his bright blue eyes at Alderam's brown ones. They were darker than usual. The blue eyes no longer felt a strong fear from the boy next to him but instead from the beauty. Her eyes wide with horror. Her mouth rigid and opened. Madeline screamed. We can never truly feel another's pain, but her scream came close. It was the scream that puts every other thought on hold. The scream came again, desperate, terrified... human. Instead of being impressed with Alderam, Perseus was drowned with anger. He didn't like seeing Madeline hurt-scared. "What did you do?" Perseus screamed at the boy. Still in the phase of the dark, Alderam wasn't afraid of Perseus. "This is exactly what you want. We are here to take her soul!" "No, won't do that. We will not do that to her!" "Then why did you bring me here?" Perseus paces back and forth in the room. Madeline couldn't see both of them, she didn't want to anyways. Even if she did, her eyes were fully shut. "Alderam, you are nothing but a weak nobody. You were not supposed to take her because you can't do it." It was the brown eyes' turn to get mad. He no longer love right and wrong. He wanted to be right-all the time. Alderam smirked, "Watch me." Before you read this, please make sure you click the button below. There will be a short story happening so please enjoy this journey.... We have an understanding of miscommunication. Raising our voice was our only solution. Silent was a sign of giving up. Adelram stayed quiet as the realization hit him. He couldn't win this verbal fight with Perseus, he knew. Even though the bad doesn't think he has any knowledge, he knows a lot. The good saw so much in him, he just did not understand why and how he turned to be this way.
Adelram stayed down on the ground, head held low. Perseus enjoyed the view he was getting. He loved seeing people weak, "What will you do now my friend? Are you going to kill me?" The bad sighs loudly, "No you idiot. You are going to see what you have been missing all your life." The good looked at the bad, making sure he actually meant it. Perseus nodded and walked away from Adelram. He slowly starts to get up but realizes that no one is waiting for him so he rushes quickly to Perseus, "Where are we going?" "Shut up. You ask too many questions." "Where will I live?" "In a hole," Adelram's eyes widen and stopped walking. Perseus stared at the good for quite some time until he broke out into laughter, "Naive little child." He continued to walk away. How will I ever win this fight without doing something wrong? Am I suppose to fight fire with fire? Adelram wondered. They continued to walk down the mysterious path until Perseus stopped walking. All of a sudden, a door appears next to him. "Get in," Perseus spoke, grabbing Adelram's arm shoving him to the direction. This is all too much to take in. He didn't exactly get kidnapped or anything but every action after his decision has been a forceful one. How will Adelram get out? He doesn't even know Perseus well, yet he chose to stay with him- with this stranger. "Where are we going?" "What did I say about asking questions?" Perseus pushed Adelram even more but he grabbed the door frame and tried to resist going in. "I'm serious Perseus, I will not go anywhere if you do not tell me where we are going!" Adelram yelled with all he's got. A rush of anger came over to him and he couldn't control it. The bad smirked, satisfy with his friend's reaction. Persues pushed Adelram through the door, "We're going to hell." Before you read this, I would like to inform to you that there will be a short story happening so please enjoy this journey....
Here we have a story. We have a villain. Then we got the hero. There's the good and the bad-evil even. As we get along the story, we realized in order for the hero to be who they are, they have to sacrifice-they did something bad. The hero, let's called them Adelram and the evil, Perseus. Adelram wanted to save Perseus from destruction but Perseus didn't know what Adelram meant. He told the good that he didn't need saving. Secretly the evil himself did not know the possibility for him to escape the bad. Adelram also, did not understand what it meant to be bad, but he thinks he has the sense of what it may be. What makes something good? Perseus questioned. Embarrassed by the lack of education Perseus had, he did not dare to speak his thoughts. He believes that Adelram is very intelligent, he would not understand Perseus at all. "You need to get out of this place. Don't stop your potential." Adelram spoke, only to have Perseus bitterly laughed back. Adelram did not know Perseus, how dare he judge him! How will the good ever know something is bad if they don't try it? "Join me Adelram, and you can rule the world. You will learn to live life!" Stunned by Perseus' response, Adelram unconsciously accepted the offer. He didn't know what he got himself into but if it meant that he could save Perseus and put some light in his life, Adelram was willing to do so. As Adelram and Perseus stepped into Perseus' world, a rush of cold wind swept around them. Taken back by the different atmosphere, the good started to fear. The bad was best at scenting fear, Perseus smirked. He held his hand out so the good could stay calm but it only confused him to understand his gesture. Have I finally soften him up? Adelram questioned. Suddenly, before Adelram could thank Perseus for his kind gesture, the good found himself lying on the ground. "Stay there! Don't even think about moving!" The bad cracked out of no where. Adelram was getting more confused, "What's happening?" "You're so naive to believe I would ever change because you joined my side." "What are you talking about?" "Listen carefully. I am not your friend. We are not the same, we can't be. I will make you regret your decision." I have nothing to regret. Continue the story and read more now by clicking the button below... |
authorI'm Chali, an 18 year old girl, simply writing to find herself Process
April 2017
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