I shouldn't have put everything to an end. When it was all spread out, work looks so small. Not until you have to finish something in a short amount of time do you realize that you are screwed and need to get your life together. I am no procrastinator so why am I right now? I'm trying to juggle it all, 4 more reading logs and 5 more blog post. Yeah, the number seems like a small amount, but if you try to write them yourself, you will understand that those number vanish away right when your fingers hit the keyboard. Oh, how stupid of me to think I can finish everything within a weekend, two days turn into one and here I am sitting in front of a laptop, writing some nonsense when I should be asleep.
Though, I tell myself I deserve this. It's the consequence of not doing my work. I had the whole semester to do this just like everyone else but I somehow abused it as well. I always talked about how I do so much work for the class, but look at me now, struggling like everyone else to do the same thing. I'm not going to lie, I am currently half asleep, trying to be deep and write a beautiful piece at the same time and how is that going? I have no idea, I guess you will be the one that could tell me.
Stupidity, that's what I would like to call my actions at the moment. I had so much time, but I didn't use them wisely. I brushed it off like it was nothing, but it was more than that! I knew it was more than that yet I just brushed it off. Although, I am doing whatever it is at the moment, it makes me think of people in my class. Are they done? How did they get things done? How could I get myself to be done like them? Then I stop. No answers were given. Suddenly, angered was all I felt. Half of the people in my class probably won't have their work done and here I am sitting in my bed, working my butt off to finish everything I could with the best thing I can give. Is that stupidity or just..... a random word that you can think of ?
Stupidity, these actions reflect me, but not my work ethic. I am productive and I write a lot. Like I said many blogs ago, writing two blog post a week is hard so I try my very best to post at least one really good one and satisfy not only my readers but also myself. Has it worked? Yes, but now, I'm not so sure. So sorry you have to read this in confusion. Hopefully, I can get myself together for the other many blogs still need to be written.
Though, I plan to write a more in depth blog post about this, I just want to briefly state that I want to keep this blog going, so me possibly posting 30 posts won't be the last time you see me. Once again, if you are reading this, congratulations, you've survived World War Three.